OOoooo.. Finally starting to do something about the situation.
I met up with Kitty today after hearing the word "GO therefore.." on Thursday and a great message from Pastor on Saturday. When I reached TP at12.50pm, honestly, I FELT SUPER OLD LA.. And out of place because I will tend to feel uncomfortable and awkward when I'm in a place I actually do not belong to. But I brushed through the great crowd to find a seat at the bench outside LT 29 of Block 11.
When I met up with Kitty, her 2 friends were with her?! Germaine and Carmen.. GOODNESS! Awkward. Because I don't know who are they. I felt out of place and worried if there will be awkward moments when none are talking. *Hate it when that happens* But everything went well, and her friends are friendly. Talked to all of them as if they are my friends. But before I left, I had a 1-1 catch up moment with Kitty when she shared with me that she was struggling to have a breakthrough in her life. A breakthrough that was longed for for a very long time and she was starting to give up hope and let go.
The fact that she was not the only 1 who was going through this cycle is the 1 thing that I am very certain about. Even I am going through it now. So I shared with her that I also felt the same. I felt like that CG was not growing and it was becoming stagnant just like this blog. And worst, people are leaving, MIA and getting to be busy with other stuff. The very question that I kept asking myself: Was I a bad leader that turns people away?
But God says "GO therefore" knowing that everyone has flaws and unpolished skills & potential in every man. It is just a matter of whether you want to put your hands into the harvest and plow for it. Because God will fill in the rest for what you do not have as you use what you have. Thats why "Many are called but only a few are chosen." Because not many can withstand the fire. But again, many ceased to commit because it requires discipline and efforts that people are not willing to put in as they choose the easy way out.
Just like what Yaowen shared on Thursday, "Narrow is the way that leads to life and peace but broad is the way that leads to death and destruction." We need to persevere and resist the devil. We need to commit once again to what we have always believed in that "Nothing is impossible". Truly it is always more blessed to give than to receive. Because you reap a greater return when you give than when you receive.
Love, Joanne.